19/52.

she's sometimes so serious. and i adore catching her everyday moments.

a portrait of my child, once a week, every week, in 2013.

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the cutest gap you ever did see.

 

we're back in business today with some grainy photos and a toothless grin. you guys, yesterday was hard. there were a lot of tears from me and the little one. but we made it through and i honestly think that lia does not remember the experience. she knows she went to the dentist and has some sparkly teeth and she knows one is gone but she doesn't remember what happened. me on the other hand? those screams will be etched on my heart forever.

it truly sucks to sit by and not be able to do anything while your kid is screaming for you. being a mother fills you with this feeling of always needing to be able to care for you kid. no matter what. i always want her happy and healthy and smiling. but it also brings the feeling that sometimes you have to let someone else do their job to keep your kid happy and healthy. it's such a bad feeling knowing that my motherhood powers don't do it all.

BUT we can't do it all, as much as we want to. so i am thankful to have found a really good pediatric dentist that took such good care of our girl. i know i've probably said this everywhere but for the record: she had one tooth removed, one tooth crowned and two fillings.

but that gap is too darn cute. and she was over the moon excited to see the tooth fairy visited last night and left her a dollar. she carried all of her money around with her all morning. she's back to her normal spirited self and all is good here!

ps. thanks for the thoughts, prayers, good vibes, etc. we really do appreciate it all!

i (don't) love you tomorrow.

 

i mentioned last week that we had to reschedule a dentist appointment for lia so they squeezed us in next month. well, they had a cancellation for tomorrow and offered that spot to us today. M was able to get the day off so tomorrow morning we'll be taking her for the appointment.

she has a few cavities (hello, crappy mom feeling!) and she has to have a tooth pulled. she damaged her front tooth last year after discovering what playing on the arm of a sofa entails. after she fell onto the tile floor, she had busted her mouth open. since her pediatrician told us it was probably nothing serious, we didn't take action until a few months when it turned out it was serious. it seems the best option we have now is to have the tooth pulled. luckily they'll be able to do it all in one appointment. but we're nervous.

and my heart is just broken into a thousand pieces over this. based on the history of soft teeth in our family and the doctor telling us that my hard pregnancy could have led to her not-so-strong baby teeth, i know i am not a bad mom but no mom would feel good in this situation.

so tomorrow morning is going to be a hard one for us. and if you could, please spare a prayer (or two!) or good vibes or whatever it is that YOU do :) we could use it!

and the rest of our weekend...

...looked a lot like this.

we spent the afternoon wandering around our town's annual mayfest and grabbed some of the best freaking BBQ you'll find here.

mama's day.

 

so, lets just say that every day really is "mothers" day. and father's day and grandparent's day because really, aren't we all focused on those little ones all the time? all day long our heads are filled with mothering thoughts as we make tiny lunches, wipe noses, change diapers and wipe up pee. and let's just say that every woman is a mother - whether she has children of her own or not, she has or will mother someone at some point in her life. it's just an instinct we girls have.

but who am i to deny a holiday built just for me? a new bag, flowers and breakfast cooked by my amazing hubby? i'll take it. a trip to the beach to soak in some sunshine with my two main squeezes? you can count me in.

really though, i am so happy to be a mom. to be lia's mom. to be the mom of any future kids that we are praying so hard to be blessed with soon. and yesterday was so deliciously amazing, even if i did have to drag tissues along with me to the beach. there's something to be said about salt water and the sticky ocean air. it's got some crazy good healing powers.

and while i am not completely better, i've got more energy than i've had in a week and i am ready to tackle all the messes that piled up while i took a breather.

happy mother's day to all of you wonderful ladies and hello to a new week!

around the house.

this week started off great but between L's cough and me catching something, it quickly turned into the kind of week where almost nothing gets done and we just bunker down at home. lia is feeling better and practicing how dramatic being three years old can be. i'm almost on the mend. i managed to shower and put on real clothes this morning so there's that. we had a weekend full of plans and i'm hoping to still tackle most of them. just slowly, while armed with cough drops and a box of tissues.

i whipped up a few crafts earlier this week and i am still swooning over the fabric hoops i made. it started as a small project to fill in some holes in lia's art wall but now i want fabric hoops everywhere! i've got some on the mantle for now and as soon as i can get my hands on more hoops, i've got some big plans for the guest bathroom.

happy weekending and happy mother's day to you all out there! there are so many kinds of mother's out there and on this mothers day, i'd love to spread the love to all of them.

ps. this blogger said it spot on about mother's day.

18/52.

since i didn't technically see her for an entire week, this photo is one i snapped sunday afternoon after we brought her back home.

oh the faces she can make.

a portrait of my child, once a week, every week, in 2013.

find more from this project here.